Wilt

Maybe it was the heat from some unknown source that brought the wave.
How can the same recipe for life
One part sun
Or
One part rain
Now seem like such an extreme.
So extreme I begin
to drag
to droop
to wilt
The rain water
saving
collecting in petals and leaves
So much so I begin to collapse under the weight.
The same life giving sunlight that blazes a path to glory now beats down so hard
I am left dried out.
I fall.
I melt.
I wilt.

It's kind of like drowning...

At least what I think drowning would feel like. It hits you all at once and its just a little overwhelming.

It all comes right at you. You're so disoriented, you don't know which way is up and out. You're so screwed up all logic has gone out the window. Where is the reasoning you wonder to yourself. And then it's one of those two things.

Either you find yourself sinking deeper. So deep that you know it's over.

Or break the surface and take the sharp breath of fresh air.

Either way, there is a moment of clarity and acceptance. You clearly see you're in too deep and this is the end. You accept you're drowning in it.

Or you realize you are almost to the top. If you just fight for one more second you will break through and live to breath, if not for one more day than for one more second.

This life, this love, this moment... it kind of feels like drowning.

Fairy Tale Fail

Once upon a time
You were the first thing on my mind
And then you turned the page
The whole story erased

Our story would never sell
We fail at the fairy tale
These pages now seem so frail
We fail at the fairy tale

Were you willing to rescue me
You're kisses could set me free
This whole thing was a mess
I'm suppose to be in distress

Our story would never sell
We fail at the fairy tale
Your kisses should make me exhale
We fail at the fairy tale

We never looked back since
Neither of us were convinced
That we would trade tears for laughter
Just to have happily ever after

Out story would never sell
We failed at the fairy tale

Hold On To (song)

I wonder if you can
Find the maturity to understand
I’m leaving it all in your hands
To finally step up and be a man
I know the walls came crashing in
You can’t cut loose from all your sins
Who really knows how a disaster begins

Just stop pretending you’re tough
Your ego, this heart we’ve had enough
You put us all through too much
Last thing you need, an emotional crutch
You chose your side fell out of line
Who will make it right this time
I don’t want that pleasure to be mine

All you want to do is be held
Well hell
Hold on and be worth holding on to

On one hand count your one and only
Add it up and realize that you’re lonely
You’ll be fine is what you told me
But shambles is all I see
It’s star white and crystal clear
That one of us can’t make it here
And is pushed and driven by fear

All you want to do is be held
Well hell
Hold on and be worth holding on to

All you want to do is be held
Well hell
Be worthy of these arm
Be grateful for this time
Believe that this is love
Because I know that you are trying
Make me feel…
Worthy of holding on to

Gas Money to Get to Neverland (Song)

Here are my memories
Sprawled out on the table
From summer to winter
My harts barely able
To process where we’ve been

This future so bright
We can hardly make it out
We’ll take all these liars
And fill them with doubt
They can’t imagine where we’ve been

Give me sunshine and rain
Send us happiness and pain
Don’t jump in this boat if you wont risk it sinking
There’s way more to life the working and drinking
We all came together
To make this thing better
So let’s go
We all need this more than you know

This journey’s so fast
It shouldn’t be this fun
I swear we’ll grow up
When this adventures done
Bring me gifts from where you’ve been

I swear I can’t do it
If I tried this alone
I wont settle down
Adventures our home
Tell them where we’ve been

Rather Spill Blood than Ink (Song)

I’m not going to write you a love song
I don't want your pen to bring me down
Every lyric you make
Tells me don't let my guard down
Love my be fleeting
But this song is still here
Reminding me of those times
We held so dear

Save all your songs about me
I don't need to live in infamy
Because every note
Will make me choke
Make us reminisce
All the times we missed

I know our song
Will take you all around the world
And tell everyone the story
Of a boy that loves a girl
It'll put us on covers
And keep you in cash
While every night your on stage
Saying KISS YOUR ASS

It make your dreams come true
While you tell me that we're through
If I hadn't broken your heart
You would have never gotten your start
I guess these tears are the byproducts
Of all our ifs and and buts

Spotlights are hot (This song is about you)(Song)

Should we deny
The spotlight is where you lie
Face down
When everyone is around

Don't fake
Your heart is theirs to take
You starve for the fame
Who else can we blame

You're geared up and ready to fight
You'll die being the star for the night
You'll move, shake, pace, scream and run
You'll make them yours before the night is done

I have to admit
We are getting to old for this shit
Quiet night can't live here
But these memories are so dear

I'll let you be my Peter Pan
And take me to Never land
But I know you're dumb struck
That Wendy grew up

For you the real world is out of sight
You'll die being the star for the night
If attention was a crime you would be a smoking gun
You'll make them yours before the night is done

How should we feel
Is any of this real
When do the games stop
Will the ball ever drop
Can we go on like this
Which words are dismissed
You're out of this world can I bring you back down
What else do you have when I'm not around
Should I send up a flare
Do you even care
to be rescued
We waited on you

You'll try to break through with all of your might
You'll die being the star for the night
One day it's real and no longer fun
You'll make then yours before the night is done...